_ x_iin the mem0ries___x

2008-07-19T20:29:00.002+08:00

ahhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
can someone help me with the stupid thing!!!!
i tried to edit n del and make new why the same? OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~ jiu ming ahhhhhh

2008-07-19T18:27:00.001+08:00

seriously i dunno wtf is wrong with my blog. and im not gonna bother liao -_- another time den do !!! omg!!!!!

2008-07-19T18:05:00.003+08:00

Happy Bday!

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2008-07-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

test test new lay out =D

2008-06-10T10:03:00.004+08:00

it's been a long time ever since i took a train to work. !! muahaha...~ so long din take train go work le. mom on MC today so she wants to take train to visit doctor so walk to the train station tgt with her.... =D

kinda emo lately =X haha think too stress ba

2008-06-09T12:19:00.002+08:00

Deutschland Sucht Den Superstar - Cry on my shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you wait for love and you're alone
If you call your friends nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life they are free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh, let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh, just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are gettin' cold and blue
When the days are gettin' hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What love can do
Love can do

2008-05-28T11:14:00.004+08:00

this is the 1st time im gonna put up youtube on my blog!

yeayea cool right ? i mean his vocal la.

let me introduce him

Baka Alex San

Weekend kuai dian lai ~~ so tired...~

cant wait to shop!! mahjong!! chill !! slack ~!!!

LYN WRU!!! DIE LIAO AHHHHHHH GRRRR :@

2008-05-19T00:44:00.003+08:00

im so tired, i felt that im not like myself for today. i woke up at 9pm, after a long slp of 11hrs which i think it's not enuff. for the past! im just so tired that i dun feel like waking up but my grandma asked me to wake up grrrrr!!!

last night he called me when he was quite drunk, i stilll remember how to figure if he's drunk or not. he asked me to look for him when im far away n busy with stuff. he told me to go his place, WAD IS WRONG WITH HIM? i asked him where's his gf, he said slping. why couldnt he find his gf? why cant he jus let things go down the drain n we b frens. or was it wrong that we speak n meet up again? OMG! i felt like something is very wrong. he will oni call me when he's drunk, he will oni tok nicer to me when he is drunk and when he is not he wouldnt even finds me!

does only drunk ppl will think abt the past and regret for a sec?!?

2008-05-16T11:50:00.004+08:00

Wednesday lunch at Sakae! Itatakimas!

<< likes to eat sushi but doesnt eat much raw ones!
>> 他说：吃了越吃越饿

*stares* ( where's my salmon sushi =.= )

2008-05-13T23:33:00.003+08:00

dear diary, i wanted to change my blog header, but it's going to take up alot of time, so i decided to do it when im free ^^

quite tired today, as got alot of things to do. worked extra 2 hrs for today. =)

blog is somewhere where u can vent angers on isnt it? haha!! there was something ridiculous happening today was that, we were given something to do, n it was damn limited! we do more, but not enuff space, we do less we cant think much things that could be done in a lesser manner! SO BUDGET!!

there's just wonderful collegues ard =)

thou i dun really tok much, im not anti social!
talk much = more mistake,
talk less = lesser trouble =x

did you feel lonely at times? haha! any human do feel lonely even if you're attached not am i right?

爱是不是不开口才珍贵~

2008-05-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

My fren sent me an email regarding about horoscope, certain lines i find it quite true!! those in italic =)

CAPRICORN WOMAN

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce.She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at anoffice and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection.

She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person.

She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her.

She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too.

She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter.

She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the nextstop.

She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her 'everyone is doing it, you should do it too', or 'I think you should do it, it's good for you',because she will do what she wants to do only.

She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date.

She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do.

She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in 'Luck'.

If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmetcooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or youcould say 'happily ever after'.
~

2008-05-11T21:32:00.015+08:00

These 2 gusy can really eat!! Eat oso busy sms-ing =x

Happy mothers day!! 16pax + little baby had dinner together at a coffee hse at river view hotel! kinda cheap thou... 18/- per pax.

Weekends was great. friday went to kbox. actually have to go back to work on sat, but was called off ! had a good sleep! 12hrs - 14hrs! n slept early at night too. too tired. hehe..

Wonderful 16 pax!!

Baby Jovey learning how to walk! ^^

So bo liao =x the food not bad only lor. still got more! but inside my stomach liao.

Flowers for mothers !

=)

Im gonna be crude that's why i post pics!!

haha. gerald gonna struggle me upside down. =)

In life there's too many Hi-Bye fren, where has all the true frens gone too?

why do human have to feel lonely?

why does human regrets?

i felt tired in everything!

当世界不知不觉的变了

有时候我怀念以前的我

作的梦虽然远远的

想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什么

而眷恋原来会带来软弱

你让我在雾里成熟

心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得

是谁惹谁言不由衷

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错怕

抱不紧什么

我不想舍得不想懂得

谁说割爱才更深刻

彼此依赖是爱不是负荷

互相照顾就是幸福的

2008-05-07T19:31:00.000+08:00

finally had my songs changed which i wanted to do it long ago !

ytd was great! went to eat frog with my frens/colleagues. =) met up with stupid mel for lunch. bought me something from taiwan.

quite sometimes didnt upload pics! will upload soon yea.

kinda tired lately =)

headaches coming on the way!!! voooooo!

2008-04-27T01:50:00.003+08:00

cool, few months didnt blog le, was reading some of my old post, and deleted some, to think back it was like a " joke " that actually falls on me, =) didnt went into any relationship lately, as i think im really tired of it. who could be someone that is very generally knows how to take initative or to even plan his own future which path he wants? im not those 24/7 holding HP to ans fones immediately, i cant have impatients bf. omg! =) everyone needs their own spare time to do smth they wants n not by sticking to each other every 24hrs!!

work been good, busy busy busy, no time to do anything, weekends usually burns. dota dota dota. nth else i would do. =)

sometimes being single is good, sometimes single can be bored.

lately starts to scold ppl liao =.= getting paraniod with people that oni see surface and take things forgranted. grrrrrr~~~~

2008-02-22T12:50:00.002+08:00

finally got my blog done!! ^^ s

sadness days has gone far away ! falling sick due to too much work to do. OT OT sleep so little =(

Happy Bday Gerald.
Happy Bday Lester.
Happy Bday Johnson.
Happy Bday Kevin.

Yea!! Life moves on without 'the special ONE'. it comes and goes! ^^ i have so mani people to bully in office!! ^^

sometime when we human recalls the past, it just seems like a joke, why do we get so sad over the things which is actually quite minor? ROFL. i do luff back. becos i think, what's the use of crying so badly and going so crazy when it is actually just a GUY!!?? Thou love hurts, how much can it hurt? it's not like taking away my life =x it comes and goes, if there's a chemistry, gif a try, if it doesnt works out well, forget it. HAHA that's wad my mom tell me.

TY to all those who was there for me when i was down, seeing me cry n drink like mad woman xD

I want to go KL! I miss KL! i miss my frens there! i wan to go KL !! I hate louis, nvr bring me go =(

Please do not read my old post, i think it is dumb! ^^

2007-12-29T13:53:00.001+08:00

Happy 21st bday to me!
Merry X'mas to all ~
Happy new year to all ~

its abt a month i last blogged. standing back on my feet once again. thanks for all the care n concern. IM FINE !! xD~

thanks to all the 19 ppl who came down on my bday !! haha. yea had 3 bday cake

this was from my fren 22dec!! half of the cake got smash on my face

belated bday cake LOL. from my office ! on the 28dec ! with other 2 frens!!

come to realise i know 2 ppl who's born on the same yr date n month with me! rofl~ aight will update pics when i moved hse ~.~

LOVES ALL

2007-11-22T13:22:00.000+08:00

few days din blog quite busy with work and sch started too. everything seems to be fine... he's busy with his assignment too. had no idea wad can i do for him too. the thing im worrying, therefore still no ans yet. crap... its been weeks. hse chaos getting heavier. grandma n mom din tok already. quite tired over this issue. i wanna move out fast! have decided to move out end of dec or somewhere there. ~.~ i told him, so he's coming along too. its going to be a busy weekend. tiring month. its been a long time since i feel his hand, when we're just 2 of us. chilling, slacking n talking. so much things cramp inside my heart. ~.~ our conversation are getting lesser n lesser. i dun wish to bring it up onto him, he's getting irritated if im going to bring up again. ytd i was so angry n upset over my family things... i didnt get to him, i know he's busy. so i was alone...

had a new collegue whose my cs fren. haha! ^^ another smoking kaki ehh..~

BEN: SITTING BY THE WINDOW
SINGING SONGS OF LOVE
WISHING YOU WERE HERE
BECAUSE THE MEMORY'S NOT ENOUGH
WEAR MY MASK IN SILENCE
PRETENDING I'M ALRIGHT
IF YOU COULD SEE THEN YOU WOULD BE
HERE STANDING BY MY SIDE
IT MAY BE HARD TO BELIEVE
BUT GIRL YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I NEED
IT MAY BE HARD ALONG THE WAY
IT'S THIS FEELING I GET
WHEN BLUE SKIES TURN TO GREY
FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
CHRISTIAN: EVERY SINGLE HOUROF EVERY SINGLE DAY
I NEED TO CRY, MY EYES ARE DRY
I'VE CRIED MY TEARS AWAY
CAN'T HELP BUT REMEMBER
HOW YOU MADE ME FEEL
YOU DRESSED MY SOUL AND MADE ME WHOLE
YOU MADE MY LIFE COMPLETE
IT MAY BE HARD TO BELIEVE
BUT GIRL YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I NEED
IT MAY BE HARD ALONG THE WAY
IT'S THIS FEELING I GET
WHEN BLUE SKIES TURN TO GREY
FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
BEN: OF ALL WE'VE SAID AND DONE
REMAINS THE MEMORIES OF DAYS
WHEN LIFE WAS FUNBUT NOW WHEN YOU ARE GONE
I SIT ALONE TO WATCH THE
SETTING OF THE SUN
FEELS LIKE I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO WASH AWAY THE PAIN
CAUSE I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME SOME SHELTER
CAUSE I'M FADING AWAY
AND BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN
CHRISTIAN: I SAID BABY, I'M WALKING IN THE RAIN

ahhh~ baby i miss you ~.~

2007-11-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

我的话越来越多是因为关心你.

这世上最重要的不止是誓言
只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸
我会永远记得这个今天还有
很久的那一天我也要有你陪.

不管多少阻碍.

2007-11-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

wad a bad day =( quite sad... quarrelled with my grandma n i shouted at her, i didnt mean it! but their too much. they really think my dad not around can bully my mother. i really hate ppl bullying my mom. this really sux! i dunno wad they want, everyone is telling me diff thingy! sick of it... after quarrelling with her i went down n keep crying! ew! n i vomitted but dunno why got bubble.. or i shld say, i vomit bubble.. sighh~!!

thx dar for keeping me accompanied. =)

2007-11-11T01:18:00.000+08:00

what a tired day =) went to work today till 715 n took a cab back. was very tired... hse is too happening, too much things to think n to make myself clear.

friday after exam... went to play dota n had dinner with ling n her bf, this is the 1st time i saw her bringing her bf out with me! after met dar ... we went to play dota... =) n met " maria " lucien too.. =)

sat haf to work! was very upset with my relative. they really like bullying my mom! well i wun let it happen...

thx dar for coming down again =)

sometime when i haf so much to say to him, but whenever i sees him, i dun even remember of wad to say to him... felt relaxed.

i guess this month till jan would be the hardest month for me. with you ard i could put everything back ahead. i dont know why.

the 18th day. =)

2007-11-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

^^. still quite tired! ytd was a busy day! think back didnt slp for 24hrs xD gonna slp soon again !

went to work! wah kao bring alot poster back... stupid 1... haha den play dota at work! as in after work lor play dota at office.. den went back home, suppose to meet zy at zouk 830 n i was late! i reach at 11! LOL~ well was quite upset/angry with wendy lah, i quite cannot accept ppl who cannot make up their decision, why would you have to say u'll get back to me n end up u didnt? at least my fren would say, if i come i call u, if i not coming means i wun call? =) sadded... i saw the queue so long ... headed to MOS! quite boring.. had my lunch+dinner+supper at clark quay coffee club, ate fish and chip lor and some galic bread xD ! very full! after food went back to MOS str8 away drink 3 cup martel >.< ~ crazyness came out at about 2plus... went to the bridge to sit with ling... aw~ backache... after that met lings fren, john, kind of crapy.. and can dance oso haha ! after that met dumdum for n go back tgt ! play dota with him until fall aslp! so tired.. haha, thou slept for so long im still tired! >.<

woke up at 7pm+. kept calling dumdum.. like pig like that! ahahaa! but i oni manage to get him at 11plus pm den he answered e call... and say he wanna slp ! rwar~!! so actually i had waited for him, but well its ok =) i thought he had headed back to slp, but.. he came online! he said he cant get back to slp... =] partially it was my fault which i disturb him from slp. thou wad he told me stuff when i think its kind of late, when i already disturbed him from slp... but it will not happen next time... my grandma is doing something silly again, this time im oso angry too.. how can she wan to rent out the room without discussing with us 1st? even thou the hse belongs to her, am i invisible? ask me to move my things to my parents room, so much things in the room how to slp? the hse nvr pay and want to sell, where to slp? im so tired of all this nonsense, why cant i have a 1 day peace at home? i can even relax my ears at my hse. im quite upset today... wad a bad night.. i was jus hoping to meet dar, as we agreed to meet up n do some work. when this 2 days din get to see him! but seems like ... sigh.. agreement will always be an agreement, wad i mean is wad i mean. when i was hoping to see him n to tell him wad had happen end up well, i didnt get to see him, but after 2 rounds of dota he is telling me jeff told him to go n eat, he could go with him n not me when i waited for him so long? i will not forget that brother 1st, but we've agreed to something? im just holding to my words oso wrong? can even we have some decision among ourself? sometimes i just need your attention to listen to me to share n help me, ... sometimes its just the 2 of us? to communicate more... to be even closer? i dun wan to have the day which may lead us to drift apart. i just felt very upset that my tears just flows.

how am i suppose to tell u that, i need a shoulder to cry on.

the 16th day.
怎么样我都会珍惜

2007-11-06T03:14:00.000+08:00

the day i cried. 06 nov 07.

2007-11-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

yeayea! just came back... wad a long day since ytd! jus now while bathing half way OMFG~ I SAW LIZARD! scare me den i quickly bath >.< make me feel like vomitting. sighh!! disgusting when it looks like transparent like that! DUHH

quite relief after i found out the thing im worrying is FALSE alarm~ ^^

ytd, sunday, went to town with zhongying ! met up with xiaoling n ling, + jaree n her bf. =) had a drink somewhere at centre point. after that buy chicken rice for dumdum! wah eat 2 packet. duhh~ i thought jeff would have it too. but i guess i heard it wrongly... was trying to help him do some paper cutting! yea trying very hard to learn abt it... =) left his place at 11am... headed home n headed to sch for exam.. i think FLUNG! omg. sighh~ hahaha... and went to play mahjong ! till about 1030 pm n went to meet insane dumdum ! until jus got home -_-~

thx honey wendy ! =) i know wad you trying to tell me, but since i've chosen it i have to move on haha, each things take step by step.. =) cover always seems to be the best to anything or perharps everything? i've always noted there's something amissed. well, anything can haf amissed stuff too =) . i know you can sense wad i have for him. women's 6th sense is strong! i do believe it! i always tells myself to be strong and to calm down to talk things out...
but sometimes i think he might find it irritating lah every week ask him diff thing... if i were him i sure cant stand it... but well its the beginning ... not too sure or close oso haf to ask... to prevent any misunderstanding... ^^

wad a girl need most? sense of security.

aight, i have no mood to blog now =) nights peeps! sweet dreams!

2007-11-04T14:10:00.001+08:00

yea! finally almost done, dont wanna edit le. the mood of editing is gone. ahhhhh~~ lately very fan. cannot eat well oso... =( my mood now is like i wanna drink drank drunk !

something is troubling me. hais, now im trying to prepare for the worst outcome. i dunno how to bring it up...

im afraid to lose him...

im the dumbest girl on earth!

2007-11-04T06:42:00.000+08:00

yeayea~ gonna slp soon after finish scanning my virus, n call dumdum at 1130am !

well, im chatting with JC, dumdum's bro now... there's smth i wanna share ~

CORLEONE says:
no i his da laopo
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
isit
ΒӘĽĽ - 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
isit
CORLEONE says:no lah all my laopo
CORLEONE says:when i became the girl
ΒӘĽĽ - 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
nvm 1 day i will shoo u all off the " laopo's " sitting
CORLEONE says:haha wait long long lah

ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉//* - says:
sad
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉//* - says:
i thought u're nice
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉//* - says:
u will encourage me
ΒӘĽĽ - .*//看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉//* - says:
den u pour cold water
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
nvm lah jc
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
i know le
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉//* - says:
u like this
CORLEONE says:
ya lah ya lah lose to u lah

ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
LOLOL~~~~
CORLEONE says:
give u give u lah

ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
lol fierce liao lo
ΒӘĽĽ - .*//看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
still say gentle.
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
LOLOL
CORLEONE says:
at least leave the ass for me lah

ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉 //* - says:
..............
ΒӘĽĽ - .*// 看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着.*// 你的笑容能给我一种特别的感觉, 一种甜在心里的感觉//* - says:
LOLOL.
CORLEONE says:
haha

DARDAR~~~~~ LOL

2007-11-03T20:30:00.001+08:00

today woke at at 6+ pm, SO TIRED ~~~~ haha... had a gd slp =) slept for like 15 hrs! hen shuang! today didnt get to see him ! OMG ~~ weird leh ! yea n didnt tok to him much, he's so busy today. actually wanted to go n find him after his service but he said would be back home earli so ask me need not to go down! BUT !!!!! he reach home so late =( n slept so earli ! will i get to see him tmr? ~.~

next week.. ~ monday n fri off due to exam.. thurs oso off, public holiday.. LOLOL ~ so im attending to work for 2 days in that week? xD

wed night gonna go zouk with my ladies =)

was talking to JC, asking him how did he get to know them n he tells me this !

CORLEONE says:
jiale from rtc but jeff from gary n i know gary the longest he is the closest to me
CORLEONE says:
i really love him

* JC FASTER END TAGGING *
~.~ i wanna put a poll to vote who he ( Dar ) loves soon =] LOL ~

trying to do new layout! thx dora aiai for helping me too >.< ! its not totally done yet.. but soon to be done ! hahaha ~

2007-11-03T02:22:00.000+08:00

yeayea~ gd friday =) !

today didnt late for work! after work went to meet ling n zhong ying.. haha and went to buy a watch ! after that shop shop and i saw a dress i like =( $64!! dunno wanna buy not :~

after that meet dar at bugis n headed to geylang to eat FROG !! =X he said he didnt eat b4, his 1st time flies~ to me =] haha...

still must get rid of the bone for him -_-~

as uual, trying to be lame !

my love =P

* look at his finger CRAP!! so obvious ! *

here are some pics took on wed with her =)

yeapyeap~

2007-11-02T03:00:00.000+08:00

now its 3am, jus came back from holland, slept at dar's hse. duhh~ tired =] slept about 3hrs i guess, den went down to meet jeff. this dumass! new frens, new probs. new things to learn from wad others have faced. ytd was a tired day, went to meet wendy n my sec sch mates. went to pub den went zouk... suppose would like to go back with dar but ~ well.. didnt have a chance to. lucky i din stay up with him.. he ended up quite late!

went bugis with mom ! hehe.. shop shop shop and got him a T =) hope he likes it. ^^

backache. sighh~

ytd evening was quite emo, actually i did wrote a post, but i was on doubt to post it out not.. cos i didnt want to say anything wrong n get misunderstanding. kind of like.. i quickly go home n thought of having dinner with him... but he said he going clubbing, that's when my heart felt downed. i din tell him.. but well, who doesnt needs freedom? sometimes too tight oso not gd... im learning to how to relax myself in a r/s but has to keep it tight too.. why? becos i dun really wanna see failure in this r/s as i really do put in my heart in le. =) i told myself, becos i dont know him very much well.. so i cant be too tight to him... slowly i will discover the depth part of him ... definately i dun wanna lose him. day by day ppl do grow up.. now its just the beginning ! thou it might be tough, we're strong to maintain it? i hope he has open up his heart to enter my life and open up to allow me to know every bits of him =) i used to dont allow my bf going clubbing or maybe if me or him going club we shld tag along tgt, but now... im having faith n trust in this guy. im not a perfect person or maybe i shld say im not a perfect girl to be gf, i cant expect everything i needed him to do. i used to not giving in to my bf n wants it my ways for the past few yrs. sometimes i really wonder shld i go n look for him everyday? would my presence be his disturbance... =) although he hadnt say anything about our r/s or any probs he has, im jus waiting to share with him =) im not being with someone due to i have to be with him, im being with him is becos i do loves him, and which has already entered part of me. im someone that sometimes i will think too much, im a person who actually ask for perfect. =)

Jeff and Wendy
i got to know wendy thru my dar n frens, a pretty nice girl. loving someone is hard =) i really wan to help them to reconile. but b4 i could step out n help, i guess it has ended. i dont really know wad had happen, b4 i could know it has come to the end !

Jeff : thou you're a gangster or wadever shit, i really dun gif a damn. =) i got so angry this evening when u sent me sms with " KNN " i haf to start to make some noise, sometimes learn to put urself into others ppl shoe n think, n not only ppl whose ard you n who are close to you, everyone are loved. not oni ppl around you. when you're a parent you will know wad im trying to imply. if you had known that your attitude is bad, why cant you jus change it for the seek of being nicer n better to yourself? is it so hard to even treat yourself gd? by mentally ill treat n to hurt yourself does it really worth? people haf to stay claim to settle things, if both side so harsh whose going to be the peace maker?

Wendy: i really hope you both know wad you're doing, its great to have you as fren, its even great that you would even calls me n tell me wad had happen when you knocked off. sry that i cant be there, becos when u called im in my doinky mode~ if you know there's something wrong why dont you be claim n talk n find solution?

seriously you both are having attitude probs. both aint claim, both aint steady. love a person is in this way? i thought it shld be this way... it takes 2 hand to clap, n you have to have a big heart to accept all comments inorder to commit it well. i hope you both can let me help you all to reconile and get the misunderstanding off N GET THE STUBBORNESS OF YOURS AWAY. dun fck ard with me =)

best wishes.

sometimes i do feel fear that if i bring things up to gary he would get angry n sometimes i really have to think twice, why? becos i cant afford to lose someone i love. or maybe to even hurt or allow them think likewise. be steady b4 u say anything that wouldnt make anyone think likewise n NOT saying harsh things, who knows it might not overcome.

at times, you might get to see things which hurt, wad can u do ? shout? quarrel? i dont know.. but i will jus keep quiet n hope he realise... thats the best way..if it cares it will definately say something, if it doesnt he can seriously fark off. becos it doesnt even cares how you feel, or maybe does it have feelings for you?

its all about him =)

its not i dont want you to come its i dun wan to see you get hurt or be angry. =) i just love your presence around me =) <3

× b Ö b b ÿ × says:
will this relationship last?
ΒӘĽĽ - . - says:
i hope =)
× b Ö b b ÿ × says:
ya ..bless u both from me :D
ΒӘĽĽ - . - says:
thx di =) i hope he is my last bf. i really do. haha

2007-11-01T03:39:00.000+08:00

i dont know wad is wrong =( ! im deeply hurt by that hit. FCK!

wake up den blog >.<

2007-10-31T05:34:00.000+08:00

yawns~ morning all =) its 535 am! came back not long ago, was at dumdum hse slping lah ! wanted to go somewhere to meet my gan papa den GG like pig. ... =) had a gd slp ! monday went to work~ after work went to meet dar n jeff n headed to JC hse. n ended up didnt go work. ahahha!! hmmm... yeap! ytd at JC hse saw dar's laptop... with a conversation with yixin... and his comment to her, just saw it, she came to view me. but well... =) its gotta be fine i guess.

kinda angry, he has nvr bring anything up to me b4, but told so much to his bros. im his gf! its btw me, he cant tell me? duhh~? =) i dont expect my bf to keep everything n doesnt wants to share/tell me anything. i dont change for him, but i do change for myself. if its gd i will heed it.

so far so gd, =) seeing him everyday. even thou he doesnt talk much about wad had happen in the past, i felt that i could sense a little, by ladies 6th sense? lols. i jus hope wad i've done, would want him to get his phobia off. so far i guess i didnt did anything wrong behind him... =) who doesnt get hurts in the past?

its been 1 week, and its a busy 1 week =)

2007-10-29T02:32:00.000+08:00

its a busy/tiring weekend! hahas~

sat slept till quite late~! went service at expo with dumdumdar, jiale and jeff. met jeff gf, wendy. VERY PRETTY =) service was fine, just that maybe its not used to it making me wanna fall aslp! haha... den headed to songka with them... after that... this kuku jeff cannot make up his mind wanna go where, in the end... wanted to go geylang the LIP Disco but was close n ended up at sultan~ zzzz... went there for a drink n headed back with dumdum... wanted to meet my sec sch fren! but arghhh... no calls... den end up slping at dumdum hse! wanted to go back at 6am... but end up piggying there... hahas...

so wad haf i done today? went home n shower... dumdum came too... well, my grandma was in.. but she got bad memory... getting worst i guess.. so it gonna take some time to let her remember HIS stuff... n acc dumdum to his grandma place while waiting i played mahjong... from my lappy... n to ikea queensway and last!!!! jiale hse... and that went to eat!

just now, to think back, i count myself lucky, why? becos, i'm actually with someone i felt very easy and comfortable which i dun need to hide anything from him. further more, its very relaxing... in a r/s there's a no need to act.. or to be shy of? or to frens oso. a true fren will accept who u r, n not wad u act as. a true frenship is to be able to go thru thick n thin too. being with this dumdum, there's a no need to act gentle LOL n im jus being myself n he's too. jus like when im with ling, im being myself! to think back, im lucky to finally actually met someone who's like this. definately i'll do the things which is right... so far so gd, we didnt argue b4, and definately i dont wan it to happen. haha!! to maintain is to solve it tgt. and not to oneself. to give and to take it may not be easy, we have to balance it. but to to be yourself is very impt! if he/she loves you. as long as we're happy, the past will be over! well, this time round, i want to stable this r/s! =) its very hard to find someone which you can get along withay... i havent been cherishing any guys after 3yrs... now, i do, i will =) i smile to slp and not cry to slp anymore =) not much words could actually explain my feelings now... but, im happy =) hahaha~ another gd thing is, my dearest dun snore when he slp =x he jus simply loves to irritated me. ass.~~ xD

his dum drawing lol, he jus drew it !

不懂装懂。。。像个马桶 says:

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着

你的身影这么近我却抱不到

没有地球太阳还是会绕

没有理由我也能自己走

2007-10-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

finally the sadness has ended in a day =)

finally we're tgt. the day that im yearning for. =) 25 oct ' 07 !!! xD

he said he saw me emo rwar~ when was in cab almost cry again but was toking to melvin kor! while in work was so tired keep fall aslp! >.< n didnt haf the mood to do anything. went to bugis and collect my jeans! den went grandma hse awhile n meet ling to go n drink! had no appetite to eat for the whole day =( too sad to even think of eating but to make myself extremely busy at work to ease everything off. evening everything was fine! =) and i went down to look for this piggy too !! hehee...

felt bad about wad had happen...thou it was a rude movement ... but at least... we will talk abt it n make things clear! yesyes!! when there's a prob in a r/s do speak up to maintain n share!! thx for clearing my dum assuming.

exam's coming soon~~ wooo~

FINALLY =)) ... love you so =)
im happy that i see you everyday!
im happy that we're finally tgt!
im happy that we could talk things out peaceful!
im happy that i have you!

IM SO CONTENTED AND HAPPY =)

2007-10-25T05:55:00.000+08:00

there's knife stabbing deep in my heart right now that i cant breathe properly. why am i so stupid to go n see? im so lost. wad am i? how much do i stand? i saw it. i just cant breathe. wad shld i do ? currently he is slping at my place. why does he have to come to my place when he haf done that? i really felt hurt badly. why giving me hope yet...? if there's no hope i rather know it now... i cant slp... i dunno wad tmr will be. why does bad things comes tgt? so much things to say. its going to be a secret that kept in my heart.

i really cant breathe for now.
i would rather to lose it now.
even now. its not tgt, i felt deeply hurt.
1st time dropping tears for him.
he said those things to her which has nvr happen to me.
am i not gd enuff?
im so lost.

2007-10-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

just came back.. well actually came back at 8plus and went out to meet my sec sch fren ! hehee.. stupid bitch! nvr change keep hitting me! hahaha!!! i so nice to bully isit? yeap and meet jeffery!! rofl~ this is him...

well.. HE IS NOT MY DARLING FOR SURE xD he is trying to do some lame things!!

met them at holland had a short chat with ZZY!! and see jeffery doing magic! haha...

after work went to bugis meet dumdum darling... haha walk whole lvl 2 n 1 cannot find dorothy zzz!! den go eat n he acc me go home!! his dumdum!! my grandma ask him come in he dun wan! dunno shy wad backside oso... lols. can see that he's tired lah!! slept in the bus!! SNAPSHOT.

took it while he's slping... =x hahahaha!!! k lah thx baby tired still make you pei wo dao 1am >.<

im very happy =) ZHEN DE HEN KUAI LE. seriously i hope this happiness will not end! even if there's problems occurs... HAPPINESS WILL ALWAYS BE MORE DEN SADNESS. =) when will you be mine :~

im so in love with you LOLOL~ ok im crazy today ... tmr OT cant see him HAIS. LOLOL. dad going aus le! haiiiiiii~~~~~

JIALE JIA YOU O! LOLOL~ GL FOR YOUR EXAM.

GDNIGHT!

2007-10-23T00:49:00.000+08:00

yoyos~ xD

ytd didnt come here! well.. actually did login but didnt knoe wad to blog. for very long time i didnt get to slp as much as i could which i used to wake up like 3 - 4hrs ago.. but now i can be like a piggy that slps for long hrs again! haha. well, ytd was a simple day, met him at my place. and my mom saw him DUHH~ headed to mac. i study abit lor... n went back @ 11plus o.o

today took half day... went to sch to pay something n then went to eat at griller! fish n chip xD n shop shop for awhile.. didnt buy anything... wait got SOMEONE make noise anyhow spend money buy n buy.. haha.. and went to buy one slice of mango cake gif him. idiotic xD. WAITED FOR HIM DOWNSTAIR NEARLY 1HR SO ANGRY ZZZZZZZZ. dumtard. went to clementi meet jiale... they play 1 round billard is like DAMN LONG LAHHH. had dinner... n went to arcade rofl~ just now cut my toe nails! accidentally poke till bleed :~ hahaha~ dumb enuff... i havent tried a day not meeting you, i wonder how does it feels? =]

before i buy the mango cake i had asked jiale to double cfm about it. but he said it was a bad choice becos i told jiale that i saw his frenster that he indicated " his fav mango cake " which is bought by his ex gf. but since its the past why shld i bother i wonder? maybe he might get upset? but... ITS HIS FAV isnt it? well ... i jus hope he likes it! i still remember when the 1st time i n him go cabana he drank mango juice =x
thanks for letting me to know your bros, n get to know you even better! there's more to come im sure of it. =)

he has actually came into my life n brighten it day by day. seeing his smile and having his nuisance are actually some kind of "bits" of stupid dum happiness which i hope to see him everyday too ! but he sure get sick of it de lah! he has enlighten my day, going work with no worries and get my job done! used to be rather emo period n cant get my stuff done correctly... but he is someone who showed me something new about a guy ! someone tats interesting.. thou he did say something thats " real " bad... but i guess it takes 2 hand to clap =) to strive and to perserver =) i believe in a long lasting r/s everyone has to be strong to it n objective =)

well, i didnt know he doesnt feels like going out today if not i wun have ask him out le. i felt bad that i keep asking him out n didnt even asked if he's tired not >.<

i think im gettng more n more dum ! hhahahaha...

today kenneth sms me, asking me a dum qns, why i didnt accept him in the past.. sometimes i really dunno wad to say about him.. always got r/s with april, who's my fren den he come n tok to me den i become the middle person, well, once in a while i dun mind ! i can help i sure help de lor... but its over le why still bother? u like to " lum char bor oso " u shld think for urself! and why would i like this kinda person? im nt a toy ok? you're not my type neither am i urs. i felt that wad u told me about your new girl its like, u're using money to buy her... DUHHH !! WAKE UP UR FCKING IDEAS MAN. =)

any recommendation for nice food? :D

thx baby for everything! =)
i just simply love this guy ! =)
i've decided not to upload his pic. it would be my personal folder! xD

GDNIGHT PEEPS. HUGGIESS.~

2007-10-21T06:23:00.000+08:00

woot~ its 615 am ! xD~

went shopping spree again rofl~ >.<>.< ~ yeayea gotta collect it next week huh.. =) and... went to ECP again ! to eat dinner with ling... den headed home. its been a long time i had a gd slp... well... since dunno how mani months i didnt slp like a pig!! 15hrs !! >.< im loving it. rofl~

heard my dad going australia to work ! 3 months ! hais, WHY CANNOT BUY FLAT LE DEN GO ?!?! IM GOING CRAZY @ HOME .......~~

yeapyeap went to see my dum dum jus now ! b4 that i went home to change shorts n slipper ! bought fries for darling ! wait for him pang sai come down ... zzzz ~~~ COLD LIAO LAH !!! den met sec sch fren, jeffery. hahaha... ~

eeee blogger got problem now i cant UPLOAD ANY PICS >.< yeap =")">.< well.. i kinda afraid of getting hurt.. so i will do things which i know it can be done.. certain things shld can be definate.. some cant... i do believe =) only he haf the urge to make me stop playing games n wanting me to see him more often... i jus feel comfortable n relax when im with him thats where the sense of feeling comes froom after 3 yrs =) well, as for lester ... let it be the past ba! now ... i have gary O.o he would be better den lester ! i wun shed any tears anymore =) is he bastard me !! ^^

c2p dumdum darling!! im gonna post your pics once the error is done !!
*hugs*

2007-10-20T00:36:00.000+08:00

back to updates... went shopping @ vivo just now ... =) bought my cushion finally! had a sunglass n a top too =) kind of bored at work... have been playing games like 4 days... and oni do bits of work.

didnt have dinner... kinda having fever now... im hungry too... but doesnt feels like eating... today's bad day i shld say? accidentally open the door n banged on ling ! she dum nahh !! walk snake... den black face!! rwar~ but we took e same cab... she ok already ! she is crazy !! went to print my econ's note... hope i pass bah. =( very sad that i fail !

darling went back without me today ! say hao le go back tgt... n miscommunicate >.<>.<>

my bad for my bad mood attitude today.. i guess it pissed you off. if its me i will get upset too... but i was stuck in the middle i dunno wad to do. all i want was to spend sometime with you! its uneasy when i dun feel u irritating me n ard me =)

awaiting for the next meet up with my darling. ROFL. =) <3

me n him just maple only =) pls dun misunderstand it >.<

total eclipse of the heart - * he's the puzzle of my heart *

2007-10-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

kind of tired today... ytd reach home didnt shower !! i KO le >.<>.<

ytd after work went to meet dumdum at IMM.. duhhh... walk till my leg pain... IMM to Jurong East to IMM to Jurong East again >.< down ="]">

i remember the part dat gary said, " jia le jia you o " ROFL~

JY Bah.. all the best.. =)

ytd was kind of emo ! cos make me walk here n there... and tired too... rwar~ this dumdum tou kan my sms last night zzz... RWAR!!~ ytd very happy =) too gd to be true... i cannot believe wad had happen... maybe its just a short while ? =) i dont know ... but i dun wan to be awhile ! =] i wan it forever.. lollolololl... it would be gd if i can see him often too =x ok that's fat hope =)

dumdum darling gary u didnt go sch !!!! ahh... c2p leh... make me so lonely in msn =~ call so many times dun wan ans... i wan go ur hse tear ur hse down soon liao !!! next time dun make u go back so late! 10pm must make him go home n slp >.<

ytd sms ling, telling her about this guy ahhh....... den he go read my msg... well, kinda low morale when i heard he has alot of girls.. =] den he say le come suan siao me >.< ! so bad d.

slowly i will find that if 1 day i dun see him n he dun irritated me i really BU ZHI ZAI !! ahh... =( am i really a shitter? maybe we lame ard too much that u dunno which of my words are truth... =x wei she mer ah wei she mer... =x LOLLOLOLOLLO~ i just simply loves the time we spent tgt =) ... he could make me luff till i wanna fall ^^ always qi fu me!! rwar~!! dont ask me if we;re tgt or not! cos i oso dunno >.< to ="x">

while blogging i listened this song.. tats random played...

MLTR (MICHAEL LEARNS TO ROCK) LYRICS
You Took My Heart Away"

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you saw me through
Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

[Chorus:]
You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everythingand a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life
Living in a world so coldyou are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love
[Chorus:]
You took...
Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone

=X

AHHHH DARLING WO XIANG NI AHHHH =Z

back to work =)

2007-10-18T02:18:00.000+08:00

kind of tired... well was late for work like 10mins... kind of boring thou...

two days le.. kevin didnt msg me =) i dont find him he wouldnt find me bah... o.O??

after work went to shop shop awhile... den headed to holland meet dumdum... we walked from holland to my old sch place.. ghim moh >.<>.< too =")">.<>.< its painful =] i know de... =]~ sry ... lol... who ask u bully me lah !

suddenly haf the urge to view horoscope nowadays... thou.. it was a gd match... but suddenly i felt emo about it... becos, its totally so nice n beautiful... but ... he's not mine ! =(

here it goes ...

Yes, and they will get together and write a great play and produce it for Global TV. These two are earthy, practical and devoted. Capricorn toils and Virgo serves. (Source: AquarianAge Romance )
For Virgo: This is an excellent union. Practicality and neatness go hand in hand for the Goat as well as for you. Fear of material loss locks you in tight for a long term union. ( Source: Love Test )
For Capricorn: This is a very good mental connection, nevertheless not the most sexually oriented combination. ( Source: Love Test )
They admire each other and live to please each other. Each gives the other exactly what they need without asking for it. ( Source: Astrology Fun )

Virgo Man & Capricorn Woman
This is a match that has a good chance of turning into real, lasting love. Capricorn girls and Virgo boys are often attracted to each other, as much because of personality as looks. You admire each other’s style and the way you lead your lives. He likes the same kind of lifestyle you do and you’ll be very similar socially and in what you like to do with your spare time. You have an intensity within you that will inspire him to be more passionate. You’ll bring out a deep-feeling, romantic side in him that most people don’t get to see. You will have good chemistry and you’ll feel secure and cared for with him. An excellent match for love. (Source: Jellybean's Astro-Soulmate Guide )
Virgo boy simply adores his Capricorn girl, and sees potential in you that sometimes even you don't recognize. This relationship can be stellar when Virgo boy encourages you to aim higher. Like you, he recognizes the importance of hard work, and he'll never shut you down for wanting to spend a Friday night studying for a test rather than hitting the town. An inspirational match! ( Source: FUNgirl - Astrology )

if im not xiao qi that shows i dont concern / care abt ... u...?

wo de xin hen luan =) ~

nights peeps...

2007-10-17T01:53:00.000+08:00

my day ending soon =) gonna go to bed... enjoyed working today... hope my working days will have fun all the way xD~ thou there's 20+ ppl there.. but i cant remember all... slowly bah >.<

hahas... today my HOD... my direactor n my HR manager had some conflicts lols... kind of funny... well everyone didnt like the HR... when the HR 1st call me i didnt like him too... so attitude n not humourous at all lor! sucky! n when i asked him who shld i look for when i go for interview... he said he stated it n BOLD it!! bold his kuku lah! feel like saying back him but i didnt... i thought he was nice when i was there to sign my contract and getting my stuff done... but later this thing happen...

aw~ sucky... today didnt take dinner... kind of .. zzzzz well... had ate something jus now but not finished... left 3/4 like that cos gastric pain till full lols... went to URS to buy a sandal.. cos of my sickening blister.... n bought a top too ... =x i guess im gonna be lazy to be play games again... now i enjoy going out even if its window shopping ! =)

have to do my assignment n hand up on monday.. kind of tired.. exam coming soon too.. hope i pass my module =) MrLion says im a shitter + bimbo ... :~

my old fren keep on disturbing me ... rwarr~~ cannot take it anymore xD~

well.. as i expected.. if i didnt look for him.. he wun look for me too... everytime only others would come n tell me wad happen... Virtual.. Real Life.. someone better =) its time to move on...

Gary Huang shi get da ben zhu !
<3 darling

i where got lie to you..
teng ni duo lai bu ji le !

2007-10-16T16:43:00.000+08:00

woot ~ am at work now !! playing pangya!!

had a wonderful day ytd !! ~ hehee... went out with sis and her daughter =) treat her sushi! n went to perm my hair so not nice i found out!! gonna re-do it again! shopping spree ytd !! hahaa... spend 180 on hair! >.< n bought some shoe!! eww ~ have blister now... cos wearing new shoe... n met my " darling " cum " ahpa " shuai ge too !! rofll.... all of us went to bugis... den later i bring him go east coast!! ahhh didnt grill him =x guess he was tired n dunno is purposely overslept or wad lo... hope time faster end ! so boring!!

yeayea as usual will upload my hair pics n his irritating face LOL !! cos he always use the fone !!! =( make me so lonely! baka !! =)

i wan more shopping spreeeee~

stupid irene mama xD wo mai shi ok?

i know u will see this...

DARLING WO AI NI LOLL ~~ go holland hunt u down! xD

2007-10-14T17:53:00.000+08:00

yawns~ kind of tired... today is sunday !

friday dar ignore me whole day.. hais..
well i guess im gonna get use to it when he is out with his fren that he wouldnt contact me bah... its always like this... i dont know why... maybe im over concern? is it gd to be like that?

sat was jacky's bday... went to pub at boat quay to drink... den went to club @ 97 >.< to drink... den headed back to boat quay to eat... kind of " drunk " haha.. vomitted 5times...sighhh...

sometimes i just feel that sometimes i need a little bit more of care... went to meet my maple mama mcuties.. xD we went to watch movie n eat sushi ! hehe.. den she wennt to pub with me too~ weeee...

sometimes i really feel lonely. ~.~
i miss you ~

2007-10-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

yeayea finally married with dar le ~

ytd got married.. thanks to all who came to my wedding... the pics will be post under slides at the right hand side...

yeap went for interview today ... waited for like 30mins n interview for like 40mins... tues start work le !! hehee...

ytd dar was sick... haha lao sai !!!! shuang ma xD~ =x take care o dar ... cant get lunch for u today... another day ok? =x when u recover we go for pizza!!! hehe.... gonna start sch next week le... we jy tgt ok? muack... !

ok going to sch now~

2007-10-07T01:59:00.000+08:00

ytd went to meet fren den go ktv >.< hais very upset... just went movie with mel.. Lust Caution... its ridiculous show... chatted with guardian via sms today... he told me to trust him n talk things out with him... as in dltergent bah... i really cannot forgive myself to be so soft hearted... why did he haf to lie to me again n again? why ppl make empty promises... ? im so lost now... hais... im trying hard to forget wad had happen... but now...

if im unhappy being with you... i would haf let it off earlier on.. why would i hang on? can u be jus more truthful... honest to me ? why do u haf to lie to me ?

i dunno why its so hurting... its more hurting then getting urself injured...

wo zhen de hen nan guo....

break up will be the best choice...

my tears... cant stop flowing ... hais

2007-10-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

yawns~ cant slp well >.<>

wad a saddening 1month i had with him... my dream tarnished... i jus recall.. those sms he had with her... they slp tgt.. tickle each other? playing with his hair? wth am i ? i felt betrayed... he knows i likes him... he says he likes me... wad is this? really no hope... wo bu guan le.... sry doesnt mean anything much now i guess... actions prove everything... i remembered there was once u told me we tgt for both maple n real life... after his personal chalet... everything changed... he say he is confused too... maybe he is confused who he likes... he say he not ready for it now... maybe he doesnt know who to choose... i guess in his heart... im drifting away... if u dun likes me , u could jus tell me n we could jus break off... why do i haf to be treated this way ...? wad did i did wrong? when he having his chalet.. he told me.. he will call n sms me.. but he didnt... too busy with the girl? i dont wnna be a spare ... hais... >.<

pls tell me to go... if u dont wan me anymore...

i guess he likes her... he choose to go out with her den pei-ing me... he promised to pei me till sunday ... out 1st month he goes out with other girl? i really dunno wtf am i ... WAD THE FCK AM I ?? just a fcking dump girl... =)

i asked my fren, would u choose to go out with a girl or to pei ur " gf " 1month anni... he said... the girl i like...

so i guess .... hais......

or isit im too good that he dun wanna let go till he make sure he finds 1? >.<

i say him till like so bad... afterall he is niceguy bah. =)

maybe im gonna start to MIA again... i shld leave... n let it go...

<<<>

bring me up.. dont tarnish my dream, hope n love on you... it was so beautiful.... really beautiful....

thx to those who chatted with me. =)

dejected... tarnished....

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suddenly i have another thoughts... hais ~ so mani ppl say so mani diff things to me >.<

sry dar if my sms was harsh till now im lost.... hais

2007-10-05T03:05:00.001+08:00

just came back from outside ! weeeee went to sch today. ouch ! my assignment gone case >.<

hais i cant slp again, my wish gone. i wanted to marry with him on the 1st month... but i guess it cant... another is... does he really care for my feelings? hais...

i cried suddenly, i dont know why im turning... do i suffer from depression again? =X i felt so jealousy now... didnt slp for 2 days... maybe wad ling say, i shld be more objective... but i cant bear to... thou he may not know wad i've done... i just want him to be happy in everything he does. =)

thx dar for all the explaination >.<

baby, i wan u to be xin fu =) from the bottom of my heart. i dont yearn to haf you... just want you to be happy =)

2007-10-04T16:33:00.000+08:00
yawns... didnt slp well... cant get to slp >.<>.<>.< so naughty ah !! rwar~ =x yeayea today gonna marry le xD~ muack baby...

we will be xin fu in virtual =) u're my best baby. muack!

after awhile im fine, i kept thinking about tmr. hais

sch~~~

suddenly i found this >.<

2007-10-03T11:35:00.000+08:00
just back from chalet. slept little. had a great time with my frens.

thanks ling, xiaoling, dar, fennie mei, jacky, saint and ber to come down n haf fun!

thou there's ups n downs in it but im contented.

didnt go sch ... eww~ cos got no mood to go.dar must be angry >.<

im left with,

1000000x kiss.
20 real kisses .
1 heart
1 ring
7 hrs
1 eyemo
1 breakfast
1 mega ...

and ...one him? *daydream*

monday slept at 5am... was crying since 11pm till 430 or so... im so emo. thou its hurting to see wad he says... the fear of losing him shld be gone thou it may not be so fast... i'll try to get over it. i promise... we'll be a happy couple in maple. i fighted for wad i want... i hope n asked for wad i want... now its up to him... thou that night was abit too forcey i wun do that again... in silence... i was so bad.. i disturb while u were having fun n throwed tantrum... i read your msg-es becos i felt uneasy... i didnt gif you any privacy... i was so fear that i wld lost you... thats why im doing all this foolish acts... im sorry, if u gonna get angry i've nth to say. im so lack in confident and faith in myself now... i fell many times.. i dont wish to fall again... in another way i would think am i too old for him? or there's smth bad abt me for him ? thou at times when i really needed you most you aint there, i was furious but i was happy in the end, u made me smile =)

hope you enjoy your friday n get to b with e girl soon... im sure if no guy were to be interested in the girl..*am always making wild guess >.< " dumdum me. the text wouldnt be in this way... yeap, im not your gf. i cant do anything but to keep quiet

. ok lets talk abt smth happy =) maple gonna patch on thurs! new wedding system things out !

waiting for my dar to marry me =x muacks!

almost dropped tears again.

loving someone isnt haf to be with him...

just hoping he'll be happy in wadever he do. =)

im starting to miss you again. =)

thx for everything my precious dar.

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i just called him, and guess wad? he is slping.... when i told him that i'll be online waiting for him.. its like 3hrs... hais.. cant he even tell me he is tired n wanna slp? n not letting me to wait so long...? hais.. when will this stop? i dont know.

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yeapyeap, after a slp i felt so fine now =) i called baby n he answer ! ew! my piggy dar... =) waited for him 2hrs for him to totally wake up ! well, was browing nexon maplestory to look for me the upcoming new hair style =x haha... kind of a joke... and hunting stuff with baby now.. and he did this stupid thing about his hair >.<

abianother lame pic >.<>

i believe that happiness is just a short time... well... kinda low morale now =) why do i feel that we're so close like a couple when we're not even. why do i feel that there's a chance btw us when u said u're not ready.... but after wad i saw... i collapse... i dont know wad im thinking now... do u still feel the same as wad u used to feel for me?? if not pls tell me so.. hais. >.< those stuff keep appearing on my mind. :~

why does it comes to night im always like this? RWAR. stupid me =)

wo de xin hen luan... hen luan... im lost.

2007-09-30T22:42:00.000+08:00
i dont know wad had happen. i felt like ... hais i dunno too.. my tears jus dropped. isnt promises a promise? why everytime so much last min thing changes? certain things can be changed certain things cant i guess. sometimes i really guess, letting him go is better. at times i know i asked for too much. can he take it? i not sure, he didnt even say a thing... today wanted to go out becos he say he going for zak last min told me, i decided to go out becos i really down when he said he will accompany me ... but end up i didnt go out . hais.. n i waited for him... i didnt wan him to know im angry or upset becos of it. so i just dont wanna move ard. now he going for the next zak? did he even remember anything he said to me? end up he went... perharps its time to quit maple? n letting everything go? im so bad taking up so much of his time xD~ ew~...

im just a girl that you met, who's asking for more that it takes. =)

today Our pet lvl-ed. =))

wanna have chalet today but everywhere is fully booked due to tmr Children Day. yucks~! lols. will have it tmr ! mon - wed =)
if everything's fine, i hope to see dar too =)
bye peeps.

2007-09-29T01:53:00.000+08:00
yawns~ am getting prepared to slp now .. hohoho ~ well kinda moody now. i dunno why is that guy cant say things properly ? even if they haf something to do ?

getting real tired staying at this hse. the nags, the arguements n the dislike . hais.

i felt that recently i get angry very easily >.< hais. maybe becos of my family that makes me real sick abt it. wtf right? this week is a heart breaking week man ! rwar~

2007-09-28T10:15:00.000+08:00
ew~ morning xD~

ytd didnt go sch. rwar ! went to paya lebar sing post to shop shop with ling, b4 that ... arghh ling was late! until i drizzle~ >.<~ sob . after that walk ard the area den went to causeway pt! bought a shorts n a bag xD~ hehee... den slack ard ling's place n left @ 230. slept @ 4am. wahahhaa~ hmmm.... was kinda angry last night ! rwar! i've been calling dar until this morning 9plus! until wo wu ke nai her i called his hse >.<>.<

suddenly am into this song >.<

Lin Jun Jie - Da Nan Ren Xiao Nu Hai

不是我的错我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火
也许大男人真的很男人
也许大男人没那么男人
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一天说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

my grandma oso funny. say wanna intro me bf >.< n ask me do i haf a bf? when wanna bring him back? -_- ~

someone owe me ...

10000x kisses.
20 kisses.
1movie.
1mega.
1ring.
1heart. 52 +7hrs. ( 59hrs)
1 eyemo.
1chalet.
1 3d2n.
1breakfast xD

<33 dar xD~ hahaha..

2007-09-27T15:36:00.000+08:00
hais feeling really very sad. i jus called him. got twice he cancelled my call. later he answer den he said he still at the place. saying he was tired. aint i tired too? i waited for his call / sms since tues when he said he will look for me, its a lie? suddenly i cried. after hanging up e fone, i dropped a msg saying " forget abt me bah " am i cruel? i dunno if its selfish to get angry or not. but even if im at chalet or mahjong-ing i do msg him or call him. is it fun is so much more impt to him den jus talking to me for a moment? maybe im stupid or selfish but i felt that his fun is more impt den me bah. but i also wants him to be happy. maybe he is getting irritated by those msg-es n calls i made to him. i jus felt very sad over this moves. i shall not disturb him if only he comes and find me. if he doesnt, forget it bah. blame my nuisances for losing him?

2007-09-27T12:34:00.000+08:00
hais. i really cant standing staying at home again ! my grandma ran away from home on friday ! n came back on sunday. she even tell me that she wun come back, n sunday my cousin called me n say she wanan come back but she wan my parents to go fetch her. isit really my dad's fault? everyone knows that he talks very loudly. that doesnt mean shouting isnt it? telling me the problems to me instead of him I DONT HAF THE ANSWER. n i get very angry when i sees my grandma eating ice cream. 1 day she eat 2 - 4. she got diabeties! zzzz den my mom always come back afternoon keep making a big fuss, when my grandma wash the clothes n etc... but sometimes my grandma oso ! zzzzz. tell her dun touch oso touch den dunno where she put it. n i didnt see my dad for few days. realy getting sick n tired of all these arguements. rwarr

2007-09-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

ew~
bad mood bad mood bad mood bad mood bad mood
he doesnt know i miss him. rwar~!!!!!
no mood for anything. leave me alone. I BITE!!!
emo emo emo !
no chalet, no dates, no call, NO NOTHING WITHOUT HIM.
i cant standing staying at home. everyday mom come back from work keep nagging n nagging, wan to buy hse faster fkcing hell buy n move out la! fcking pissed of. DAMN IT.
i was so bored n i took this !

2007-09-26T12:09:00.000+08:00
back from blogging, lately was kinda busy with my chalet chalet n chalet!

started going chalet since last thurs n i didnt attend sch =x had mahjong mahjong n mahjong from thurs to fri only. its michelle mei de Bday. haha. after that accompany my fren to buy HP, he said he didnt want to buy the same as me but in the end he bought the same as me ~ rofl~ den headed to michelle mei's hse ... wahahaha slept from 2pm plus to 1am >.< so tired. den 4 plus go home. aw~ let my sweet dardar wait for me so long T_T sry o dar. if i neglected you for those days. yi huo bu hui le ! muacks

and today i jus came back from chalet again ! ew~ just that didnt mahjong. hahaa ~ the chalet only me lollipop n xiaoling n i persuaded a guy to come down after work too. lols. which is xiaoling buddy =x she asked him to come but he dun wan, den i " po lo soh " him to come den he come =x b4 that was 3 woman's bbq =x wahaha.. and our sausage got ate up by meowmeow >.< eee.

ew~ this morning kinda bad mood. T_T~ i sms-ed n call dar for many times and he said will msg me but i waiting till 6 am, no msg or calls. hais~ i kept wondering isit becos past few days keep chalet n i neglected him ? ew~ but i oso very bad. keep wanting to talk to him >.< but he so busy n said will call me de but nvr T_T~ oso i find him de. after having breakfast i called him den he ans. shld i be happy or not? but by e moment my tears almost fell off. i dunno why but.. hais... maybe i disturb him too much le bah. i shall not disturb him n wait for him to find me instead bah. ~.~

wanted to book the kumpong hut chalet next week, which dar already said ok to it. last min say haf to "ask / inform " his parents. at that moment when i abt to book he tells me that when he says ok ?! sometimes i really dunno wad he thinking, im very " mao tun" awhile say go his place den say later his parents come back how ? den awhile say chalet, den later say so many things again. i shldnt have ask anything further in future. arghhh! today is the 6th day i didnt get to see him. maybe im too annoying? i shld jus sit down n wait for him bah.

anyone has recommendation for nice food? do drop me a tag.

2007-09-20T00:27:00.000+08:00
yoyoyo~ so tired. haha my dar bath so long 1 hr liao ! rwar~

ytd was kinda busy day o. slept at 4 plus woke up @ abt 9plus to go Courts den go meet parents go out. so many yrs later den whole family out tgt! omg im so happy. n go marketing too. after that meet ling suppose to make passport but unfortunately she cant make it till next yr n we headed to bugis to shop ! ahhh n was late for sch ! she say she emo den dun wan go sch so earli ! aw~ n i was in the diff class with her until my fren called me n tell me that its possible to change e class ! omg! n im not in sch. well i sent a email to the in-charge hope she get it! till now i havent get her reply. aw~

just now went to meet dar for movie ! aw~ tio bully. haha watched 881 again. for me is the 2nd time for him is 1st. n i missed Secret. eww. no more le. anyone gonna buy me e DVD ma? T_T sob. den headed to orchard meet ling for dinner n went to e2max for audi for an hr. den go home !~ both me n dar very tired. but dar more tired den me. hahaha~ sry o dar ~

dar where's e thingy u owe me !!! ahhhh i jus remember. ewww. kns. pian ren again T_T. bath 20mins now 40mins liao la!!!!!!! rwar~ jus now told me will be away for 2 days. denver say 3 days ~ eeeee.... 3 days cannot see u n hear u . so bad! angry liao nah !!! sob.

bye.

2007-09-18T03:18:00.000+08:00
well jus finished bathing ! im xiang xiang ok ! yea jus met kevin dar ! ROFL! my 1st delp maple bf i met! went to chill @ cabana as usual! my spot! with ling. n went bowling too. wee i won! xD~
DAR U OWE ME THE THING U BLUFF ME T_T SOB

ling told me about Ern, my x bf. lols. about him having his msn saying he cant forget me. uh huh ~ woot. actually i had forgotten him. till now, i dun haf him that bad but jus too obessive. rofl. maybe he isnt the type i wan bah. =) thx for loving me so long that i couldnt do anything. hope you find someone soon =) best regards.

while blogging, im in msn too. n dar say this !

''k3V1И''' OWN Β3ĽĽ says:
when when when u wanna be mrs hong =x
haha. weeeee~

where's e thing u owed me? cheat my feelings! rwar...~

o i took some pics of my dar too. LOL~ lets see...

these are the pics we drew on msn last night =x

2007-09-17T17:49:00.000+08:00
woke up kinda early. kinda tired too. rofl ~

today had sour sour sour~ sob. c2p dar!

now finding new cash suit~ hehehee~

later update

2007-09-17T04:45:00.000+08:00

woot. ^^ tired day.
well today haf nth much jus online for quite a very long hours. am getting tired now =)
had done some GPQ. thx dora aiai for the members n thx dar for the " bombing lols. n thx denver for the death >.<
yea~ had a talk with guardian. sometimes i really think why is he doing so much ? seeking attention? lols.
later gonna have a gd rest ! yeayea! kinda happy with my current dar! i can get to slp well ! and slp enuff. unlike last time. im chasing for the time. n not enjoying my slp at all. all i shld say, i would haf to slp lesser when am with guardian to be on his pace? hahas. am not saying he is not gd oso. the current one, we would talk ? msn? haf some little games? least we dun chat or stick to maple only ! rofl ~ feeling that my life has abit of changes. that im not so tired now . =)
yeap! had alot of fun nowadays! =)
drew some pics in msn too ! muahahaha. upload tmr. now net too slow le >.<
SI DAR!! u gonna died @ this :

''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
i forgot ur blogname lol
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
1 kiss
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
muacksss
ΒӘĽĽ owned ҚҼV1И says:
real kiss
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
LOL okok
''ҚҼV1И''' OWN ΒӘĽĽ says:
i m always rdy onli dno u rdy anot ~ lalala

I wan to be Mrs.Hong !!!! =X
when when when?

2007-09-14T16:39:00.000+08:00

yawns~ wad a tired day. hehee..
woke up at 12~ den went to remove some furniture from my grandma place! so heavy ahh rwar~

ytd went to bugis to pain my nails at my cousin shop! free! hehe. cos she asked me to help her to see if her staff got report sales anot >.< ~ haha. and i got this color !

2007-09-13T03:54:00.001+08:00
yawns~ another day has gone~ keke.

today call baka chouchou dar for 1hr!! rwar~ ohh ~ hehee...

well, these afternoon was kinda pissed off. cos of my grandma la ! everything oso wan dunno how to throw like junk le~ hse no space le~ anyone wanna accept me? T_T sobs. helped dad to moved the fridge over to my hse ! arghh!!~~

went to watch, I know who killed me, with ling. well NOT A BAD SHOW !! pls go watch ^^ . RAted lor -_- ~ =x den went to kovan to slack !! arghh!! when abt to reach there ling then told me meeting cas! a girl who i didnt like. arrghh ~

had a chat with guardian today. well, im confused too ~ haha he asked me not to believe wad the others says. uh huh ~ n asked for another chance? Lols. ~ wadonearth ~
if he didnt left, i wouldnt have met dltergent ^^ =) took some SS with baka dar xD~ thx for chatting with me on da fone =x

yeayea that's all =) u still owe me 100000xx times REAL LIFE kisses. muahaha. i can take it, its whether can u ? LOL ~ n picpic okies?
im too tired to adjust the pic >.< ~ gdnight peeps.

latest update.
my dardar is a ben dan rofl

Kevin says:
lol i reali go find kevinbaka.blogspot.com
Kevin says:
bluff me T.T
BELL : says:
LOL~
BELL : says:
DARDAR BEN DAN MUAHAHAHA

2007-09-12T13:31:00.000+08:00

oh well, yoyo im back to alive with my blog =)

its been like 1 month plus didnt blog le. well, started mapling again T_T playing like for 2months like this. got married on the 18th ! n broke up few days back. well it was a wonder marriage even in aquile i didnt felt that way. thou it has alot of downs in this relationship yet i didnt give up at all... till few days back. i decided to let it go. for the good of not making me so much upset with his actions. he was sweet at times which i would say. but he didnt too much to affect my mood many times =) sometimes i really think he do so much is for acting? there was once he decided to quit maple n he open-ed store n sold his stuff for 1meso each. i really think would he do that? n he said he bought all stuff back at only 80Mil. LOL? really crap. i didnt believe it at all.. why ? reason is simple, he would wanna sell things at high price would he even sell his stuff for 1meso? even until today he had a store for " quitting sales " he did sell at a high price too. after broke up, i heard from someone that he wanna marry another girl which is GOONG. with him imitate actions towards her, i already guess-ed so. im not stupid actually. i jus kept quiet. that's my tolerance to you. or maybe to everyone. just becos i kept quiet you think i dont mind? ROFL~ thanks for leaving me ! n letting me to get a new one, a sweeter n caring one. really im happier den b4 =)

i used to haf a good maple fren, goldeen. she upset me with her moves lately. she lied to me ! how could she? if she tell me the fact n the truth when i asked her the last time. i would forgive her but well she didnt. why do ppl have to be imposter? do u really haf to be pretty to be ard the whole?

gratz i helm-ed today =) very happy ~
thanks to frozenfaithx, karaja, zxxbaobaoxxz, xgrandcrossx, darling dltergent, honey jastyle, seenme and wuguitianshi for helping me =)

xdora88x the little bunny darling girl ! ROFL

oh well i think i gonna flung my exam. rofl ~

cheers. will be back soon

muacks!

2007-08-09T22:11:00.000+08:00
well, its been quite some time i didnt update my blog, its a hard n tough month.

just had a relationship ^^ n broke up. im fine with it, hahas. but... its not totally my fault, but maybe both parties... i dunno wad he is thinkng. keep thinking about the past and bring it to me. zzzzz

anyway my cousin gave bath to a baby boy ! weee..... ^^

2007-07-01T05:58:00.000+08:00
hihi, quite a few days didnt blog. lols. yea its sunday !! lol.

basically, friday went to kbox at about 1am plus bah. lol. actually was about to slp den fren call up and ask me to go kbox with him n his fren. sang till like 4plus 5 den we go home le.

today met si-ginna darn funny la! he like a joker sia. lol. ate sushi with him and than watch transformer!! SO NICE!!!! WEEEEE. i gonna watch it again on monday =P nicenice showwww . den went to Bugis to play DOTA LOL. next time den take pic with u ok. lol.

ok gdnight.

2007-06-29T01:19:00.000+08:00
today just a normal quiet day. woke up in the afternoon eyes very pain until very hard to open. sighh... it seems nth special. just dota, maple, audi gb. no more. really dont know wad can i do. my fren say, this month is a breaking month! maybe i shld agree?

cannot bring myself up! sigh. when can i stop! i really cant take it le. its dark in it.

2007-06-27T17:09:00.000+08:00
this afternoon i blogged something long, but i was so chim xim i deleted everything. i cried. i cant stop crying these few fcking days. i felt so lousy oh man...

well that fcker ern says that he studies IT n can check my things LOL? so its hacking la? i can call police lor. fcking cb study IT big fck meh?

seriously guys really sometimes get me so pissed off, stop hiding things from me if im ur true fren, if im not den leave me alone la, I DONT NEED SUCH FRENS LAH. I GOT MORE BETTER FRENS. i dont mind lesser 1. lesser problem oso lor. 1 by 1 like that. i really dont know wad to say.

today i talked to my ex which is like 3yrs back. i asked him why he did those stuff to hurt me in the past but well i got the answer which i wanted to ask like 2yrs plus back.

after crying n stuff i will stand up again! cool man.

ZEO I WAN U TO KNOW, IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U. AND ALWAYS =)

yes and i love you #CsN MY LAUGHTER THESE FEW DAYS COMES FROM YOUR GUYS! really. apprieciate that. MUACKS MUACKS.

2007-06-25T23:06:00.000+08:00
just had a game. cool. use bug somemore. wth lo. so obvious. zzz.

ling pls lo i oni telling u lor. who has the problem with it sia?

there's nothing to blog today. hais...

EMO !

ok after emo-ing now update. hahahaha.! incredible baby having 2 meals of mac. kns. hahahahaaa

im so happy !! HAPPY ~~~~~

I WANNA GET MARRIED IN 2YRS TIME. ANY SUITORS? ^^

2007-06-25T04:27:00.001+08:00

today forget to call bert bert to wake up =\ haha n woke up at 1230 den go grandma house with my mother. my grandma is sick. lol~ n my cousin pass me vcd .. wah kao eh full of dust oso dont wan to clean for me. lol.
now is 347am! haha. wanted to slp earli but.. hai.. heart broken. i really dont know how to understand guys le.
i felt tired. why like that. why now is guys that doesnt likes to say much things n like to keep to themselves? i felt kinda tired. im so afraid to fall in love again! alot of guys keep keeping secrets n dont wanna tell me! or got things hide to themselve. i really kind of tired. they make me so scare. 1st was 1 of my ex who keeo things n i found out he timer me! 2nd is another ex of mine oso dont like to share n we always quarrel cos i really know too little. wad the world turning into ? i really confused. tonight i really cried out of confusion. i really dont know how to carry on. sigh... why so tiring now? darn emo now... my best fren is my " chou chou " bolster who wipes my tears!
n lyn U GOT MAPLE DUN WAN ME SADDED. u another 1 break my heart.
as for zeo, wah piang eh i really pissed of with u leh. u always say call me back den u nvr call back i wanna volcano erupt le lor. zzzz.... if u find me den u find me, im not going to find u, its like calling u from 100000km away!
bert, come to a thought i really doubt we can be together. u told me ur parents traditional. u're well educated. im not. im older den u oso. i dont have anything to match with ur family. i dont wan to put u in difficult position. i dont wan u to " throw " face also. dui bu qi. if u ever read my blog u will know why i tell u not to like me. sry if i did play with ur emotion.
我好难过 T_T

2007-06-24T02:17:00.000+08:00
well, another day past. haha. what did i do today?

woke up ate duck rice. den alicia n rong break. zzzz so shocking! sadded. den play audi watch tv do abit revision KNN!! i so lousy tmd. LOL den play dota.

mom dye-ed hair. lame shit. lol! i wanna cut hair! my cousin show me a website with loads of hairstyle. damn! i dont know wad to choose. lol.

stupid ling got maple bf dont care me go die la!!!!! last time dota audi find me now maple bf dun wan me. shooo shooo !!

2007-06-23T01:53:00.000+08:00
another day past. yeayea!!

well the "hawker" not gonna start next month. sadded. " yi chang huan xi yi chang kong" cos no space. zzz.

Zeo go slp le. drown died.

today played 3rds of dota. 2 rds with darling! wooo smelly sia haha. planning to open a " kampong hut" chalet to relax n have fun! yeayea! cant wait tat day! lol. n haf a taste of it. nvr try b4 leh. n less den 5 ppl to BBQ hahaha! thats lame. what a boring day! haha..

2007-06-22T00:54:00.000+08:00
Woke up at eight plus to reply a "gd morning" to him. den went back to slp until 2plus. haha. than surf the net for some stuff. 5plus receive a msg saying he called me early afternoon but i dont answer anonymous number haha as there's many stupid agent will call n ask the things over and over again so pek chek lo! i called him at 11pm n he said he is busy n will get back to me, well all i have to do is wait ? yea, i guess. always say call me back, chances are very low of him calling me back lah MR CHIA!

yea! 2am! finally saw text from him yea. but i guess he gonna slp soon. well =)

Left house at 6pm, at downstair waiting for ling to take cab on the way fetch me to BBDC for revision class. Till about 930pm reached home at about 1010pm.

Im not moving to yishun le! Weee~ The house sold. But mom like it alot lah~ Will be finding some where else.

Just talked to my very very old fren. knew him when i was 14!! haha, but its like 1 yr i oni tok to him once. damnit lol.

i get irritated. lately i really dont bother wad ppl think n thought. i really want to have my own space. and now finally, IM FREE~ =) TOTALLY FREE.

After 3months 13days, it ended. after 1month plus of strugglings n hard thoughts. it finally ended. =)

2007-06-20T20:36:00.000+08:00
new layout. hope its pretty fine. feeling very moody lately. really hate ppl treat me as spare tire. getting sick of everything. really cant get to commit a thing. ANiceGuy used to chat often. Than lately didnt chat, get hooked by someone else? Telling me that, recently only talks to one girl. so i guess it must be that girl he is obesses with now.And forget me, and tell me that even he has a gf im still his fren. LIAR! Havent together already forget me. Im easily forgotten. Why must guy be like " oh im bored den i come and tok to u " WTFAKKK

Than Zeo? Got GE dont wanna talks to me, still tells me " i quit the game u to tok to u u dont apprieciate". As if i ask you to do so! Look! Out of 10 message i got only 1 reply at times.If in MSN i nudge 10times if im lucky i'll get replies in 15mins, if im unlucky maybe there wouldnt be any reply ! wah kao eh! how to commit like that? Like that 10yrs later i no BB liao la! neh neh poke.

What has this world turning into?

Im really at a lost. I dont love him. How do i do to not to hurt him? Wah Kao. Everyone's getting more attitude problem. What has it turned to? How to commit with someone like that? Why everytime loves turns out to be the other way? You love him, but he dont. He loves you, but you dont. WTF?!?! Now, whoelse loves me? this is crazy lah. I am crazy too.

Suddenly felt tired of everything and started to cry for no reason.
Its so hard to find someone with a comfy arms. =))
Lol?

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